Archive for January, 2014

Footprints in the Snow

January 26, 2014

Footprints

Originally uploaded by Q_uilted T_hrifted

Our older son just came in for a 10 minutes visit while picking up his mail. When he left daddy said “you look sad”.

I didn’t share how much I have been missing him.

Moving forward

Moving forward

Our son had looked at his younger brother and was amazed and said he has grown an inch since he saw him last. That was January 11th when the younger one stayed overnight at the older one’s place so mommy and daddy could go out for dinner. We hadn’t had a date in a while. I digress.

Getting There

Getting There

We immediately went to the hallway wall where we have the measurements of both boys on the wall. The younger one is 1 1/2 inches taller than where the older one was at 12 1/2 years of age. Our younger one will be that age in March. The older brother calls the younger brother a “beast”!  They are 13 years apart in age.

Peaceful

Peaceful

I did shed a quick tear while measuring the younger and placing the mark on the wall. I miss the older one so much and the depth of feeling is intense at times like this morning. I am proud of what he is doing in his life. I like the woman he is dating. Life is really good.

It really isn’t a feeling of sadness. It is a feeling of life. The part of the heart that always is held for an individual child. That special feeling when you know he is a part of you and it is a good part.

Sunshine

Sunshine

I finished this block today. It ended up looking like this.

Alternating block #15  - Kitty in the flower patch

The photos are for a project I started this past year and the main blocks are a disappearing nine-patch.

The alternating blocks are the yellow and creams with touches of blue running through them. Six design boards are ready to be finished up.

Block 13  - New Fresh Snow

I completed a red block this week and the blue one this morning. I always have leftover squares that start the next block in that color.

Passion

Passion

I started this morning with making a red block and decided to take out many of the red reds and all those that read with more pink. A tribute to  Valentine.

Valentines Block #16

Earth

Earth

I find it interesting this block #14 is Blue.

Polka Dot Luv

Polka Dot Luv

Blue Jay - bird watching this morning

Blue Jay – bird watching this morning

Drawn to Different

January 17, 2014



sewed on June and July this week

Originally uploaded by Q_uilted T_hrifted

I have always been drawn to different, I feel a comfort level within different. I imagine it comes from way back. As far back as I can remember I have had hair that I feel is different than any one else. My parents situation was different than most. I found later my friends I gravitated to were experiencing similar situations but in very different ways,
Within this feeling of different I think I have protected my heart but it is a heart that has intense feeling. Both of my sons are this way. That intensity can cause quickness that has taken understanding to harness.
In this quilt it is made of the littlest of left over pieces, scatterings of here and there, I think they make a big statement. I have been thinking of putting a red border around the inner section and then continuing with the “coins” running around the perimeter.
When my older son was in school I feared the push to mold him into the norm would cause him to lose his amazing individuality, his spirit, his creativity. He survived. There has been scarring but he is moving forward and is being creative with his music while working for a company that takes care of (tries to protect) high need adults. It amazes me he is where he is. We have nurses and social workers in my family so I am not surprised. I wonder where life will take him.
I continue on this piece not knowing exactly where it is going, modifying the plan along the way, it evolves from the fabrics I have around me and the projects I am continually working on.
This past holiday season was difficult with my mom having a stroke and recovering well but also knowing things are now different. My best friend from high school’s son committed suicide two days before Christmas. I have always worried about my older son and know how strong the pull is in depression to find some kind of peace. For some it has come to this.
My brother died 30 years ago last Memorial weekend. It was in an accident but life was very messy. There was a festering of activity going on trying to find some kind of answer and not being able to get there and then the accident happened. It makes all other activity come to a screeching halt.
Then life moves on again and that feeling of different is intensified. The aging process puts an entirely knew dimension on it because our time here is ,,,, short… limited.
I push myself toward some kind of happiness within trying to make sense of it all. And not even that … sometimes it is just trying to get through one day within it all. Knowing it is limited and making the most of each day would really be the best thing to do… in my different kind of way.