Thoughts….

I haven’t blogged in a while but I am out here….looking…..thinking….searching…wondering…

So many many thoughts… the mind skips from one to the next…going in many directions…

There is a constant attempt at a  balancing act.

(I’m a Libra…balancing is in my  nature!)

The positive…

Friendship-inner beauty-acceptance-Spring-the search for strength-joy-walking-goals-inspiration-creativity-deep breathing-safety-peace-family

The negative…

insecurity-perceived beauty-loneliness-injustice-health-loss of love-sadness-anger-scared-time passing quickly-time passing too slow-pain-insecurity-tiredness-aging-life-fear-emptiness-expectations-bills-unemployment-forgetfulness- death-depression-existing-numbness-shattered glass/shattered dreams

The questions…

further education-raising children-loving-aging-retirement-

I have two boys…one is finishing his 2nd year college…spreading his wings….independence….relationships with girls…setting goals….being a alpha male….relating to his father more than his mother….interest in music that is so 19 year old boyish….ish….but yet so creative in it’s own right…..  friend influence….death of classmates and friends in alchohol related car accidents and suicide….wanting to be an adult…athletic…proud of his body…wanting a job with status or prestige/image…time with friends….time on the computer…over the top….grandious….stubborn….hard headed…studies…responsible for his own grades…..food…..health…..missing his little brother….lived with guy friends last summer….plans to live at home this summer….scholarships…vying for that starting spot on the football team….powerlessness…authority….job hunting….running track,dropped batons,pulled hamstrings,relay team vs open events…

The other in in first grade….needing structure…roudy play…interest in his body…arms flying and legs moving too fast….blue slips….accelerated math….anxiety….accelerated reading….smart mouth….cute words….insecurity with riding a bike….learning to play tennis….teaching a child to shoot a basket-touching the rim for the first time- working on strength and form to make that shot…wanting to be like his big brother…needing kids to play with…getting homework done…doing homework with supervision but on his own…handing his homework in….chores….allowance….structured summer program….

Finding that center. Balance. That’s the goal.

Spring is Here!

Spring is Here!

Originally uploaded by Q_uilted T_hrifted

This was my first picture ever posted to Flickr last year. The picture was taken May 22. I have another month before the tree gets to this stage. My Flickr anniversary will be June 11 2009. Keep posted!

I cut a few more branches off the bottom a month or so ago. They were starting to hang down over the sidewalk. I heard you are supposed to cut any branches off that are growing downward. Healthy branches are supposed to be growing toward the sun. This photos is April 2009.

It really won’t be long now before these babies pop open!

The little crab apples are creating quite a mess. I have been putting them in the compost bin. That should be good I would think.

Mother’s Day May 10th 2009

That’s me…..the shadow on the right….the sun is setting….I really like this time of the evening.

We haven’t quite reached the full blossom stage as in the top photo on this blog but it is just days away…a week I would think at the most.

Happy Mommy’s Day to me.  It’s almost midnight though…pretty soon I am going to turn into a pumpkin…or go down with the sun!